44th pday email from Albania!

Dear Loved Ones,

I have to testify that the Lord is a merciful one. I know that our Savior, Jesus Christ, is aware of our every need. So as we work with him through our personal prayer and studies every single day, he can help us get to our full potential.  This week, man, the Lord has blessed us in ways I have never before seen in my life and I am very much grateful for the experiences I have received that I can take with me the rest of my life. 

I am so grateful for my companion Sister B to be such a light and a guide for me in my life in helping me become the missionary that the Lord needs me to become so I can testify to those of my personal witness to those I have promised before this like I would find. I know that the Lord has those waiting for each of us personally that need us to call them in from shore and towards the trail to their Lord and Savior.

This Zone Conference I seriously learned so much this week. One of the biggest things I learned was LOYALTY IS OBEDIENCE. It never has been so clear in my entire life. We show our obedience to the Lord when we are loyal to him. Meaning we are faithful. Meaning that we will NEVER LEAVE HIM. Meaning that we will endure the VERY end that the Lord has set for us.

I really felt the Love that our  President has each of us when he said, "I don't want to lose any one of you. That is why we are talking about Obedience..." I felt the spirit so strongly that this is how our Father in Heaven feels for each of us. We are SO PRECIOUS to HIM! He doesn't want to lose a single soul. That is why his work going forward and with great strides and challenges afoot. 

Something else that struck me during the meeting was that the moment we are obedient, we are HIS. HOW BIG OF A BLESSING IS THAT!? I mean seriously. It is just amazing to think about it. By the means of a Savior and his suffering for each of our sins so we can become clean through repentance, we can then have the Lord come into our Lives more and we can fully become 100% HIS. 

I know that the biggest question that stayed with me during the conference was, "Will you be loyal to the Lord during your mission and during your whole life?" That really gave me the time to ask that question. I know that later this week I had my spirit confirmed to me the answer to this question. I was reading in my personal study when I felt so strongly, I don't want to leave this church. It was almost a plea from my spirit. I want to be loyal to the Lord. I want it with my whole soul. I am beginning to see that ever since I was a little girl that I had that desire planted as a little seed at a very young age that has been blossoming throughout my life and is still going. I know that I am always learning and that it is a never ending processes. 

As an example with this, Sister B and I had an amazing experience with this during our Personal Study. I remember I began to read where I left off in my studies the day before and after starting off with one footnote in the scriptures, I went on a crazy adventure through the scriptures where I was being spiritually taught by the Lord himself as to how I could become better as a teach and as a child of God. 

I learned within my studies that every time we go to study, I grew a image in my head that we go into a separate room in which the Lord is and he is the teacher as he teaches personally the words of God. I know that the scriptures are living words that have and always will apply to us today. I know that the Lord is always thrilled when we open the words of God and coming unto him.

I can remember that after I went through my spiritual road trip, I looked up at Sister B and by the look on her face, I knew that the Lord really taught her in her studies that day as well. The Spirit was just amazing in that room as we both looked at each other and were tremendously happy. I NEVER want to forget that moment. What it felt like to have the spirit of God as I studied with the Lord. That is what it is every time when we do our studies. It is simply up to us as to how we take our private tutoring time with the Lord. That is such an amazing concept I learned this week. 

I know that I don't have all the time in world to express all the blessings that the Lord blessed us this week, nor can I fully capture all that I have personally learned. But I do know one thing...

That this Gospel is meant to be ENJOYED!

Thank you for all that your encouragement. I know that the Lord has called me and along with every single one of these missionaries here to bless the people of Albania. Something that stuck with me from President Weidmann told me in a reply to an email that serving in the Adriatic South Mission is a great privilege that the Lord has given us personally to be a part of. 

I know that the Lord has pick very specific missionaries to serve here and that we were all together before this life, knowing what we were about to take on here on earth. I know that the vineyard here is sacred ground for the Lord and has chosen us because he trust us with his precious children here and he knows of our great gifts we have  that we can add to this mission. And I know that this time is a time rejoice! Because we are embarked in the service of Our GOD!

I know that the Lord has a call for each of us and that there are things for each of us to do. It is up to us to go out and do what he has asked us to do. (1 Nephi 3:7) Because he really has prepared the way for each of us.

Know that you are all amazing and that I love you all!!

Just remember you are 100% HIS! Because you MATTER TO HIM!

With Love, Motra Bezas