43rd pday email in Albania!

Dear Loved Ones,

First Off, little bro. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! You are so amazing! I am so grateful for you. Keep being amazing and doing what is right and the Lord is going to open up doors of opportunities this year for you!

Second, I know the spirit is one of the greatest gifts that the Lord can give us. I felt that He has been with me this week on whole new level, more than I have ever felt before, but it was not in the way I was expecting. This week, I actually was struggling with many emotions due to the feeling that I felt that the Spirit wasn't with me. But it didn't make any sense to me because I was doing all that I was needing to do by being obedient and following the Lord anytime I felt the smallest prompting, I went for it but it felt that I was not myself - I suddenly was feeling a layer of dullness and not being able to focus. When I went to pray and study everyday, I just felt I wasn't there. But I didn't even know where I was. I felt that I was dropped into a box, where I felt that no matter how hard I tried to feel the Spirit, I was just not seeing the results I was seeing a few weeks earlier.

I can testify that the Lord is with us and is AWARE of each and everyone of us. I know that the Lord placed Sister B (Motra B's newest missionary companion) at this time in my life to help me as I went through this new challenge in my life. There would be days I would just be so frustrated and exhausted of just trying to fight to have the Spirit with me, I would sometimes have moments of just feeling overwhelmed and tears would come because I felt that I was lost and felt that there was nothing left I could do. I felt completely alone. Later looking back I realized that Satan was trying really hard with me this week, but the Lord placed Sister B there to help me get through.

I remember one day, she saw me becoming more and more down on myself and my situation and she told me that a week or so before she came here to Albania, she was going through the same situation and felt that she couldn't focus and felt that nothing was speaking and the Spirit was just harder to come into her life. But she said that after she came here, everything just cleared. She then looked at me and said with great confidence, "I feel right now that the Lord allowed that experience so I could know and understand how you are feeling and what you are going through. I can promise you that this time of your life will pass and it will become of great value to you. And that this breakthrough you will have will be miraculous."

I am so grateful for her in my life.

On our trip to Macedonia this last Monday, I had two amazing experiences. One was on the trip to Tirana. Sister H (Motra B's previous companion) and I made a goal that we would pass out two pamphlets each. Well, right off in the morning on Monday, we got on the bus and not long into the bus ride, a lady started speaking with us for the whole ride for two hours. There was just something special about her and we connected right away. Right as we were getting off, I called her over and told her that I wanted to give her something that meant something really special to me. I then gave her a Plan of Salvation pamphlet and testified that this was a plan that God has prepared for us so that we can be with our families forever; and Iwanted to give it to her because it meant everything to us. We also got her number and planned that when she is in town that we would meet again. She was amazing!

The other experience was coming back from Macedonia while we were in the car with the Assistants to the President and the other missionaries, I remember looking up at the mountains for a moment. I felt something change around me and felt that there was someone watching over us and as if someone was listening to our conversation of religion in the car. I then felt the Love of God come in that was very subtle. I know that the Lord was there and that God was fully aware of the work that we are doing here in this part of His vineyard.

Last story is about a sweet 8-year-old little girl that was baptized last transfer. This little elect one is just a gem in God's kingdom. This week she has been really sick with the flu, which has been causing great stress for her family since her dad is in Italy trying to find work. I remember getting off the phone with her and having the thought come into my mind that her home teacher should give her a blessing. So I called her back and asked if that she wanted to receive a priesthood blessing. She said yes and so we arranged the situation, and I knew that this was meant for her as well as her family to see this blessing take place. I know that the Lord is aware of each of us. Through every stage of our lives.

Love, Motra Bezas

Keep being awesome!

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